Sunday, September 20, 2009

ALMOST 2 YEARS AND EVEN MORE EXCITED!

We started TTC two years ago in October. I have had some ups and downs through this, but I will admit... mostly ups ----> I've gained almost 40 pounds! Ack! Stress is my enemy and food is my comfort and now I don't even feel comfortable getting pregnant!

Tomorrow is the day! I'm going to begin to recover myself so that we can continue our treatments... I am aiming for January which really means February (because I am a procrastinator in all things!).


On another wave-length...


I've read many blogs that described the sadness when discovering that their friends, family members or fellow infertiles get pregnant. I have even come across a few friends and family members that have been worried about my reaction to their news. SERIOUSLY!? I can't be more happy for these new babies! I was offended when my BFF asked if I was okay when I found out her sister was pregnant. I then found it funny when she asked if I was mad when my BFF told me that she herself was pregnant! LOL!


Yesterday was the most AMAZING day! I spent the entire day preparing for and helping to host my SIL's baby shower! It was the best! I can't wait to meet my new niece or nephew! My brother is so sweet and excited and my SIL is the cutest pregnant girl I have ever seen! I didn't get home from the shower until nearly 9:30 pm!


Shortly after arriving home I received an unusual phone call from a local hospital. Who would be calling me from there? I almost didn't answer it, but then a light-bulb went off and I realized it was my cousin and of course she had gone into labor! What an eventful day! Seeing the birth of this amazing new life was the best experience I've had in these last two years of TTC! I was so inspired by the courage and strength of my cousin it just made me more excited, not sad! It's really okay if I don't have a biological child! I just want to be a mommy, but gosh the experience of childbirth sure would be incredible!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

AND THE WAIT CONTINUES...

It's been a long time, because there is still nothing going on. We don't have the cash flow right now to continue treatments, so we are waiting for a miracle... or tax returns, whichever comes first. We have been looking into adoption. We have filled out a few informational type forms, but haven't made any commitments to a home study yet. I think we are going to do the foster/adoption classes that are provided through our state! I don't think I am willing to deal with a teenager though... Teaching them is enough for me right now!